What if we stop having a ball?
What if the paint chips from the wall?
What if there's always cups in the sink?
What if I'm not what you think I am?
What if I fall further than you?
What if you dream of somebody new?
What if I never let you win, chase you with a rolling pin?
Well what if I do?
I am giving up on making passes and
I am giving up on half empty glasses and
I am giving up on greener grasses
I am giving up
I saw this picture recently of a hanging vegetable garden and thought that there's something very magical about it. It made me want to grow vegetables in my nonexistent backyard and make tomato basil salads.
Usually I avoid thinking of things I would like to have someday mainly because I'm scared of hoping for things that I probably won't ever get. I just don't want to jinx myself, I suppose. And part of me find it a little bit too silly wishing for things like a house and a family at my age.
Then, I realized that It's been so long since I've wanted anything. I know wanting too much is not good, I'm not sure about not wanting anything at all. I wanted a trip to Kenya months ago, but that dream slowly dissipated since I found out a flight alone cost $2000. After months of finally saving enough to be able to stay there for a week, the value of seeing the $3000 in my savings account is worth more to me than the price of another vacation. Don't get me wrong, I'm all for seeing exotic places and experiencing life. But right now, I'm leaning more on the side of pragmatism over idealism. If you don't mind, I'll appreciate it if you reserve your judgment for another who is a lot less well-traveled than me.
Usually I avoid thinking of things I would like to have someday mainly because I'm scared of hoping for things that I probably won't ever get. I just don't want to jinx myself, I suppose. And part of me find it a little bit too silly wishing for things like a house and a family at my age.
Then, I realized that It's been so long since I've wanted anything. I know wanting too much is not good, I'm not sure about not wanting anything at all. I wanted a trip to Kenya months ago, but that dream slowly dissipated since I found out a flight alone cost $2000. After months of finally saving enough to be able to stay there for a week, the value of seeing the $3000 in my savings account is worth more to me than the price of another vacation. Don't get me wrong, I'm all for seeing exotic places and experiencing life. But right now, I'm leaning more on the side of pragmatism over idealism. If you don't mind, I'll appreciate it if you reserve your judgment for another who is a lot less well-traveled than me.
Here is a list of things that one day I want.
1. vegetable garden
2. a small Victorian house or a Spanish bungalow.
3. a library - not full of classic, pretentious, thick, intimidating books like War and Peace or Atlas Shrugged, but of warm books that teaches the value of truth and love, and how to be honest and how to love.
4. a wedding on a beach. At least the reception. A nice Catholic church wedding is a tradition I wouldn't mind keeping.
4. a wedding on a beach. At least the reception. A nice Catholic church wedding is a tradition I wouldn't mind keeping.
That's it for now. The rest I'll share when I'm feeling more courageous.
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